Dark
Matter
A. S. Kline © 2012 All Rights Reserved
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Contents
A
Figure Seated In The Twilight
After
The Flurry, Under The Moon
Considering
An Index Of First Lines
Exhortation
To The Self-Inventors
The
Walker In The Dead Of Winter
Contemplating
The Salvation Of Freedom
Nothing
To You, Everything To Me
Holding
Hands By The Fire: Winter
You
Can Write A Poem On Anything
The
Voyeur of Self In The Guise Of The Other
To which the
galaxies and bright stars of poesy are glued.
Or perhaps a river,
that throws out alien objects in its flow.
You have to live
long enough to be ready for its any given
Influence, although at
times an icy tip will emerge, rolling
From under, and its
green caves turn, glittering in the light,
Then sink back into
silence, into the dark of
It’s an ocean too,
or this field of hidden insects, birds, seeds.
Now and then comes a sudden flurry of flight. Now and then,
The world is streaked
with lightning and the heavens crackle.
The darkness
matters. The conscious mind, never skilled enough,
Fashions out of
light, but the universe itself rests on blackness.
And
no dark god. The veils of
colour agitate on a snowy evening,
But
not for us. There’s a greater
moving on of immaculate things,
In an intimacy of
fields, forces, energy’s particular manifestations,
Objects we love, and
places, as well as the fists of flame in the dark.
Tonight, I sit and
think. Tonight I create the world of make-believe,
Fragile
in air and evening.
Winds of the pure creation tranquil blow.
Yes, sometimes
before we’re ready a curious peak, or blade, or fin
Of solid matter,
dark out of sea-scoured ice will rear its head, ugly
Or beautiful at its
own un-will, its own blue non-intent, to glitter,
In
an uncanny silence. That
will be presage perhaps of future cliffs,
Cavernous
grottoes through which a winter sun gleams over waves.
That will be
prophecy of white levels,
But
not for us to predict.
The sea of light has its own underpinning,
As the motion of
these lines was not counted out on the fingers, nor
Predictable from any
conscious moment of a life, my life, they flow
From
a place not to be looked at too closely. Like a man sitting calm
In a silent place,
whose private thoughts and being will not be
yours.
Below this mind’s
the creative mind, with its own language, tongued
In delighted rhythms
of the starlight, only ours because it emerges
From what is us,
from the lake and mirror, in the watery frill, echo,
And
murmuring edge of meaning.
It can never be ours in otherwise.
Is ours because we
dare to sit so silent and be overtaken by words,
By the up-thrust,
the snout, the fluke, the skirmish of the summoned,
Yet there’s no Sibyl
in the cave. Smoke curls round the empty tripod.
Babble of metaphors.
The dark knots of matter move the galaxies; we
Cohere. Somehow form
rises, structure and not as intended, somehow
The strings of the
darkness utter, so gold and blue and red shall rotate.
A daybreak, the twilight, almost one, create a
landscape of pyramidal
White, but light is
fractured at the prism, and the arch scales the dark,
Till
an unknown, as lingering as smoke, waves over the rim of horizon.
The universe, in a
hidden communion with the self,
An
unmediated presence. The
child was silent,
And could see a
mountain in the air, in another
Age of the world, or
that panoply of characters,
On the green grass
under lucent everyday stars;
Now the man must
wait for imagination to begin:
He is pleased with
the movement of water and air.
Here he is most
himself. Isn’t it then as Leonardo
Said? Most oneself
without the noisy companions:
And yet, the gleams
and ghosts in the painting, yet
The magical watery
curls, and the pools among rock,
Are evidence, if we
needed evidence, we are never
Solely here, mainly
a part of whatever exchanges live
In the stillness
between our lives, in those canyons
Between minds, else
how I could speak to you,
How could we build
ramparts of time in the wind
In which our private
thoughts turn to public flares?
From the open door,
a shower of stars
That street-lights
dim:
But visible to the
spirit,
Though city glows
Like a nuclear
after-fall,
On
a bare sea.
Down the slopes of
light
The constellations
slide, the forms
Tenuous again,
But meaningful to
the mind,
Though myth dark
As a fading
manuscript
Is
a fragile flower.
In the far blue the
moon
Climbs heaven
without its gods;
Such illusions fail,
Though
seductive to the heart.
Step out, through
the tracks
Of creature into
coldness,
Breathe this air!
It’s as though it
blew
From a mountain of
the past,
Carrying off your
loves,
Lives and emotions,
Though self is still
here,
Poor and small,
In deeper darkness, witnessing
light.
To
slight. There’s a glitter,
in the spirit, opposing
The conflicts and
the denigrations; it’s a valuing
Of
the creature and the creatures, in compassion.
It is what I feel
for you, how you feel for me.
The quandary, how to
move from the private
To the public, how
to transform the Earth,
Before
we take our history to the stars.
It’s a springtime of the species, hidden in winter’s
Last
awful passing.
Hope alive in the branches.
The shattered rims
of the dark alive with cold
Yet
held out as an offering in splintered hands.
It’s the sensitivity
to all beauty; the inner rejection
Of all violence; the
refusal to pay lip-service,
It’s the service of
the lips. We have built a shelter
From
the fragments, remains of Orpheus’s song.
Slowly understanding
deepens among the realms
Of
understanding. An idealism unfolds. A hidden
Flow of light sings under
the world, more silently:
The denials once
accepted are no longer acceptable.
The snow, the ice,
the rain are crying for the lost
Phantoms of the
dream, these nations, races, faiths,
Their ghostly
foolishness, their trade in transience,
All the nonsense
indulged in fantasy, loathed in truth.
The scenery of the
past is gone, its after-trail lingers.
Now there’s a region
to find without the mythology,
Though
with myth’s resonance.
New speech, a flame
Of the infant dawn
around the nascent emerging sun,
Beyond the cry of
day being born to wintering Time,
The scream of
merciless Poesy in the moorland wind,
Beyond the desire
for speech; in the calm beginning
Of
the small stream unfreezing in its platter of leaves.
Which
is the gentlest stir of feeling, of pity, in the mind,
The strong moves of
a morality proven against the poles,
Against arctic drift,
the face of the icefall where we cling,
The
cornice of power, the dark blizzard of non-meaning.
At the end of winter
the solid melts, nothingness fractures,
The health of the
ground trembles in a breeze from the west,
Falls ease a cased
restriction; the root in the rock breathes;
Pebbles shift eerily;
the hawk re-appears in the utter blue.
We are re-born. What
if life was never re-born, generation
Clogging generation;
if the old givens were never destroyed,
And the ritual,
sham, cant, trappings, and titular nonsense bred
Till the end of days!
What hope then for the ghostly phantoms?
But now the iceman
drips, the snowman collapses on itself,
The fingers of
glittering gold and blue grasp air, and dissever,
There’s a glance, a
touch breaks through the formal language,
Revivifies the
tongue and warms the humanity in the human.
The frozen winter of
history was all the time in eternity. These
Are spirits which,
encapsulated in mind, grant strength to being;
These are spirits
shining out of winter trees, ruffling the water,
Minds not mine,
climbing the seed-pods, skimming the wheat.
The un-power of
compassion is gaining, now the dark soil sighs,
The shadow of summer
compounds itself out of the green bud,
And the houses are
not houses they are the gates of our dreams,
The streets are not
streets they are the tracks of our imagination.
No prophecies. Our
world intensifies in the moral, which is our
Future. Every life valued, every feeling, every
creature, every
Blade of grass, each
tree and hedge, every core of every flower,
Valued. Here in this spring, here silent, in a shimmering
of light.
How the poet might
evade the traps, like a salmon high
In the air as it leaps
the weir, under a slope of sandstone.
The tightness, the
nothing-to-lose ecstasy of the language,
As it rounds on the
tongue, like a cold pebble sucked wet
From
the stream; a miraculous freshness of new metaphor.
Later the poem
becomes the poet, the poet the trail of poems.
As the painter left
part of himself on each canvas to find self,
And lose himself again, in a flicker of blue, in yellow layers.
Then imagination
hardens, not away from beauty, but into self,
The casing that
defines us, the outline of a life and a meaning,
In a universe free
of meaning, but filled with delicate shapes.
Reading the early
work now the future is obvious, was it then?
Could personality
resist intelligence, could fame fail to corrupt?
Did he look backward,
forward, was there development, design;
Or did self overtake
self, and the inner unfolding take place there
In the place of the
mind which is within the space of our thoughts,
Until he became what
he was, a speaker of new things out of old,
A magician of the
colloquial tune, concealed so carefully, behind
The
curtain of a changed convention? He empowered the tongue.
He reiterated what
the personified Muse repeats to each generation:
The essence of being,
to take ownership of self and that thought
Which comes out of
self, is self; if self, that is, is anything at all;
To bear witness, to
love and death, of which there are many forms.
Reading the first
poems one fails to imagine the arc of his creation,
Yet knows it wholly,
so the latter verse simply echoes the former,
As the evening sun might
evoke the sun at dawn, in opposing skies;
So that it is
fulfilment, even if only fragments survive; in each leaf
The whole tree is
exemplified, and the greater is there in the lesser,
Whatever
comparison means; where every vein writes its signature.
To express the
fragmentation: a shattered cry like the cry
Of the air when it
shifts over the moor, in landscape filled
With
absence, intermittence; with forms of exit and stone.
Carved in the
heights, bits and pieces of the constellations
Gather above, though
we lose most of the individual names.
They triangulate our
grief or joy that concerns all this world,
Though
it’s an effort to redeem ourselves simply in the local.
The place is far
from the phantoms, is heather, gorse, bracken
And thorn, that blowing
tree and the child swaying inside it,
A deep honeyed cave,
a pit of escape, the lulling, the dreaming,
At
the far extreme of the mind where our thoughts in time begin.
The weather
sculptured its backbone and its limbs of extenuation.
Grit-sharpened black-stone
measured by tides of season and star,
Until it was reduced
to this ancient essence, an eternal landscape,
Which
bears us; kills us; then sings to us, caressingly, in between.
The light,
especially the light, was broken into pieces by the wind:
Here a few sheep
grazed; there a single tree was shaped to the east,
Like a flow of wave.
What had once been the great outpouring,
fire
And colour dazzling
in the Vision, shone now with subtler contours.
Drama gave way to a
deeper compassion, as the light’s underpinned
By a darker mass,
whose energy acts as gravity and not illumination.
And though what
shines is beautiful to us, what holds it all together
May
be the absence of radiance, now, a fabric of mercy in the bone.
Of the dark mass
drawing me, sighing,
As it once summoned
the imagination, the great
Poem of the heart; a
region, its field;
Though this place
was none of my ancestry;
Here, was the
unfamiliar space, brazen and mighty.
I thought its
battering ram of mindless unreason;
The emotion I
feared, and fear; the swell
Of its storms swiftly
transforming the day;
The sweep of its
shapes stretching to all horizons;
Could be suppressed
and unknown,
That its weather
needs be no part of the mind,
And its own self not
part of this self, merely
Through some
happenstance of location,
Some quirk of
language, though not my speech,
And
a raw and generous avowal, not my avowal.
I thought it would
be overlaid, all that origin,
Neither
here nor there in the course of things.
Time surprises. The
river runs always from a dark
Buried under some
rock, layered in some deep level,
And we are never
clear of anything; always here,
Where we were before, and discovering form
In the seeming
shapeless, in the eye of the gale,
Or
buried in the heath, among soundless scents.
I thought I had left
the darkness behind, longing
For light, for the huge
civilising glow and its soft
Kind shadows,
needing their solace and its comfort,
Though I walked the
reservoirs, climbed hills, looked
Over the windblown
water, felt the dam tense at dawn,
Lowering
over the valley, defining ‘strong’.
Tonight the mind is
filled with the sight and scenery
Of my dead, the
haunting of another age and my age,
My last century,
gone to enter this century,
And the century
before, conjuring their spirits,
Which it seems are also my spirits whirled in the wind,
Of which one spoke
to the poet, the other was silent.
And its mystery
mimics the transient breeze
In moving my feeling
from place to place,
Like the flickers of
thought on a loved face.
A motion of time in the
motion of being,
Deeper than knowing,
touching; seeing
The whole in the
feature, far and deep
On the surface of
light, mind un-asleep.
Till we almost
believe that life is one,
And empathy reaches
down to the bone,
And no island exists
where all are isles,
Chained
by sorrows, connected by smiles.
The vigour can never
be nothingness, the flame
Is
always ghostly ashes.
Everything dies everything
Resurrects, like the
snowdrops, concentrate on that,
And
how the new sun makes spring out of the wind.
I am speaking of
mind, the irreal, and only vaguely
Of
the other. This is not
science, which only sings
The myth of the
outer spaces, explains the forms
Of
the inner. But what the
mind produces is never
Solely what mind is. All thought is unpredictable,
Like your beauty.
Yes, I am talking to you, to mine,
To
the past, to the dark essence of our ghostly trade.
Not what we are but
what we make of it all, what we
Do. And not our
words, which can only ever be signs,
Like the flags and
pyramids of colour in a Paul Klee
Painting, which
always point to Paul. We are names,
But
what else, greater than names. How do we escape
Them, escape the forms, transmute ourselves to
spirit?
That’s why religion
fails because it imprisons the soul,
Which
is the free individual in every woman and man,
In all who are
neither, all who are both, all who refuse
To endorse a plan
for pain, or a mask of final intention;
Who would rather
face truths, and the sweet darkness
Which
blows over all, through all, and will all eternity.
Now we begin again,
but not with infantile pleasure,
Though pleasure
matters, and with the deeper knowing.
A heroism indeed for
modern times, as the poet declares
From
his ornate tomb on which Melancholia sits musing.
There is a flash of
gold light on the covering of snowfall.
There is a melt going
on under the seemingly frozen world.
Though we spend our
time on the tyrants, recidivists, loud
Howlers of faiths,
there is some river deeper flowing below.
There is a white
trickle of life in a corner of being, and those
Giacometti hands at
the figures’ sides like leaves, like blades,
Like shovels, are
ready to lift the enormous burden of all this.
They lean forward
into the wind, they gesture towards the sky.
Now then begin again
each day seeing it new. It moves
Like a runnel and
also rests like a pool. It’s dark like the Tao,
Hsuan, black as lacquer, the energy inherent and the going on.
You must re-invent
existence. Do, as Ezra said: ‘Make it new.’
But it’s the
specific that the names can’t communicate,
As I sit here in a
patch of heat looking through the glass
And
feeling the whole of this Earth flowing around me.
It was always the
world of nature, the earth in eternity
That interested me
and not the world of others, though
I function there. It
seems always the being face to face
With the universe
that matters, not the blind everyday.
That’s never easy,
to be the artist, be the poet, focussed
On the art, the act
of creation, besides which every other
Consideration vanishes,
and we disabused of false gods.
The true god is to
explore the self, more and more deeply.
The true god, if
there were gods, which there are not, is
To penetrate the
question more and more fully, and not
Of course the
answer, as there is no answer, and as our
Question is never
complete, that’s why the sculptor runs
On endlessly with a
series, on what seems an identical
Theme, or a painter: the poet less easily forms
himself
And yet is defined
in almost every word, every nuance,
Every
tone, rhythm to which he returns. We call it style,
But it’s the essence
of the maker. It’s the breath of black,
The silver darkness,
the green stars shining over the sea,
In the wet and
luminous dawn, it’s the vision, inwardly.
It’s levelled ground
on which a single mind is founded.
We obscure ourselves
with meaningless talk, the chatter
Over creativity, and
yet there’s a communion of makers,
Who whether they
realise it or not participate in the one
Rite,
which exists in no known religion, not even Delphic.
We obscure our
spirit, our soul (an archaic name for mind),
By speaking of the
magic, the miracle of the unconscious:
Magic, because we
don’t see how it’s done, don’t wish to;
Miracle, because
without it how can we godless be blessed?
But in the light
comes the gift of the light, the green stalk of
The
seed, the sun in the glass.
You pick it up like bright paper
That unfolds, to
reveal a life, you become a seethe, influences,
A host moves through
you, the Sidh with their windblown
hair.
Then
nothing. They fade. Once
more you simply confront this
Universe, shining;
and must do so in almost prosaic terms lest
Style comes between
the maker and what is made, the speaker
And
our message, which is never a message, merely our destiny.
Where every leaf’s a
mirror, containing the marvellous,
Flash of time in
fire, and the advent of brilliant Spring.
The sunlight on the
water is both flowing and still. We
Are
fixed on the poles of being and becoming. The eye
Of reality stares
into us, becomes the irreal, a moment
Of
mind. What we are, why
the self is never determined
By
how the mind works. Since
some part of its content
Comes from beyond,
merges with inside, is transformed,
To emerge as process
and product, or thought and ideal,
In which the
complexities of what derives from outside
Are
part of the plot; as the
data may reorient the program.
The sun on the
water’s a glitter of diamonds, eye is torn
Between the cool
dark stillness at the far end of the lake,
And
this fling of ecstasy; the line of trunks, the fulgent.
Flowing and still:
the jewels on the surface, yet that fall
Of light, an
unwavering glow deep down in the muteness,
So contradicts
itself. We are both, we are lightest mind.
Wandering between
green under frost, like present
Over
past. Boots, pack, in sunlight,
in the hollows.
The immense freedom
of life, human constriction
Are what I consider, sitting here, but heart’s
there,
Where three worn
hills smooth as sand dunes pass
From foreground to
horizon, bare grass and stone,
And have names that will
not be remembered now.
Tremor and shiver of
ice-cold and glittering on-flow,
Dark water that gave
its river a name in ancient tongue,
No pebbles under a deep
black singing; dale of the mind,
Where nothing’s
determined of what the human must be,
Everything is open
to our affection, touch of our loyalty,
A gathering of love
that interpenetrates all these systems,
Knits all this variance
of life and non-life into the beauty
That we sanction;
our gifts to the universe. What we are,
Beyond the
foolishness we perpetrate, the only worth, best
Value of us, our
makings out of love and for beauty’s sake:
Which
includes you, my love, which forever involves you.
Of tin he passed
transparent through this world of shadows,
Like a puff of
breath on a darkening stair, like some vaguest
Contraction
of a sigh. He was hardly
the region or its angel,
More a possibility
of presence, wavering, then quickly gone.
He was like the
figure at the angle of the window in the scene,
In a dark picture, there
in camera; a shape that passes in trees,
That inhabits the alley,
within the green and grey; he was like
The one desired,
never to be seen reflected in the glass again;
He scattered like a fragrance,
even as he penetrated the walls.
Momentary stars
back-grounded him, but not as some radiance,
Not as the spectre on
the mist, he was more delicate than Ariel,
He was water,
written on air. He was like a bell-note echoing
With
departure. He was not
defined by the world of humanity.
But was no phantom
from some other world. What other world?
He sang. It was a
gasp of light, dissoluble, too far to be known,
But
a harmony and a cry of sorts. It concerned those spaces he
Could not express,
except through this space: this spurt of mist,
Taking
form in a mouth. He found
it difficult to achieve being.
It was not his
forte. He was more comfortable among shadows.
He did not come
bearing a message, nor even identity; an illusion
Perhaps, as
perishable as old film, or as the meaning of whatever
We no longer love. He
was sound going away, an unseen logician
Of
absence. He might have
had the look of a marble statue chill
On
the steps of an unlit garden, or of the blackbird after its song.
He came as light on
the water, and left no trace; planetary vibration,
Detected
somewhere by the amphibian creeping closer into its mud.
He is the signifier
of our being and our fate. Nothing as solid as self,
He slips between
pages of our books, between smoke, dust in the air,
Yet
is nearer to us than our own thoughts; or deeper in the darkness.
And
defenceless sleeping, though sad mind knows otherwise.
This is a world
where the powerless are mown by the wheels.
Yet power is empty.
We never learned how to harness power.
The logging trucks
go ploughing up the places that I admired,
Yesterday; the
delicate patina of mosses, twigs and ferns; mud
Now. Yes, life will recover, maybe. Nature, after
a fashion,
She who does not
exist: all, we say, is matter for us to change.
The dead fox lies by
the road, the badger-corpse, the pigeons,
And
the hawk, the fallow deer, the thousand mice and worms.
Sentiment we think
is a flaw that harms us: why? In private
Lives we are tender,
we care for the small, the underprivileged,
Then evade ourselves
in public, in the camaraderie of transience.
I would like to
think we could get beyond, and not by engineering,
But by a
re-valuation of values, and not what Nietzsche meant.
Shakespeare’s blind
mole is right, those insects under our feet;
Extreme
non-violence. Tried: we
tried everything, stuck to nothing
Long where public life’s concerned, but greed and fear, science our
Curiosity’s part-assuager, art our solace: yet somehow the morality
Creeps through,
somehow rightness permeates the irrational mind,
And I can’t pass
road-kill without shuddering, sad for the harmless,
Grieving
for the self: that deep distaste for reality inside the irreal.
You don’t feel it?
Your prerogative: I feel. Something bleeds in me,
And
bleeds endlessly, while the low sun reddens in the western air.
Friend. The warmth spins with the globe and connects
our entrails.
Torch-bearers, it’s
the defence we build. Against dark matters, against
The
betrayal of everything human by the inhuman, monstrous forces.
‘Getting and
spending we lay waste our powers’: Wordsworth; never
My favourite poet,
true; but that’s truth, and worth the understanding.
You and I have other
business, friend. We are traders in the commodity
Of mind which comes
in rare shapes and sizes. Its bales are awkward,
And we refuse slave
labour except by ourselves, paid labour except
For the wage of
gratitude we pay those selves, the pleasure of creation.
Since
everything is creation done for the love and not the foolishness.
Everything is
creation that is spun from quiet hearts musing in the dark.
It is dark where you
are, light where I am, no metaphor. Soon otherwise.
The great blue
planet turns, progresses in its orbit, moves with its sun.
Mind is our sun and
substance, and our trade. We freight our vessels deep,
We set sail; we
carry the perfume and the ambergris; we touch far shores.
As the deer go down
the hill,
In
stately progress.
There’s a salt lick
Further down.
Marvellous
contact.
A lick of the earth,
To remind us, all,
All species,
Where
we come from.
I wouldn’t wish it
on us but, by their light,
Should we return to
the universe, we’ll become
The man in the wind,
the woman in the moon,
So one last look at
the stars before saying goodbye,
And
a second breath of the silence in the sky.
I wouldn’t wish it
on you, yet here, tonight,
Their infinite quietude
seems our birthright.
The wintry trees on
the promenade, a bone-deep frost,
And a clarity
dangerously close to enervation, too near
To
dissociation, to detachment from the un-detachable.
The fact that there
is nothing of us beyond is simply true.
The kind and
beautiful are in us, our gifts, the creatures’,
And therefore
absence, emptiness, is a slant of perception,
Since the perception
is ours to choose, life or death.
Poetry is the final
seduction; can convince the rhythmic
Mind of abolished
gods, and a vocabulary of lost domains;
Is an incantation,
always capable of swaying the initiate.
His voice rose and
fell like the cold waves of an ebbing sea.
One must love truth
a little to agonise over that being seduced.
Charm is not
sufficient, though we all wish we had a little more,
And
a little less fear and hatred. Charm is not enough, it needs
A permanent dialogue
invisible but recognised going on beneath.
His winter walk was
deep enough aspect of the solitude we feel,
The loneliness;
Pascal’s as he gazed outwards, or Baudelaire’s.
The tension we feel,
in knowing his, is whether the beauty helps
Or hinders, whether
the pain we feel is a medicine or a poison.
The ambivalence of
the tin man in the darkness, is our uncertain
Musing on the far cerulean
glittering, those points of fire and time,
Despite a personal
warmth undeclared no doubt, because unseen,
Art being the
creation of the possible, and rarely the work desired.
A tin man in a
wind-blown scene dwindling in dazzling glow he is
Turning and waving,
or turning and being waved by a far motion,
But at the core of
the dissipating light is the creator, a man himself,
Always
more than the actor in the space of our ungrateful yearning.
To
sleep at night?
If you can sleep.
We need to lie down
with each other,
In protest at the
darkening spaces,
Otherwise what is
there to sing of?
Whose heart do you
unpick at night
When you sleep? Is
it Self or Other,
The Phantom or the
Spirit, neither?
We have to invest in
what we love,
In
protest at the darkening spaces.
It’s unimportant if
we or it survive,
Otherwise what is
there to dream of?
Whose body do you
lie down to sleep
In
at night? In the irreal,
here, the flesh,
Is it the Phantom’s
or the Spirit’s, either?
We need to lie down
with each other,
And invest forever
in what we love.
In
the sunlit wind, and in spite of the stone facades.
Something delicate resists.
Few in time go willingly
Into what the world
prescribes for them as the future,
Though there is
pretence. The forces work their way
Deep through the construct
of what we consider free.
Freedom is more an
individual singing. Not merely
The choice to follow,
or to lead; or the discretionary
Forms and loyalties;
rather dissolution of our belief
Except in our moving
out beyond the world, in free
Association with those
unspoken elements of mind,
Best
unspoken, tracing out unseasonable affections.
So the individual sound
modulates in spring evening,
Carols an instinct
of which we own many, fluctuation
In
our site of being.
Without it, outer world is nothing.
Those achievements
of the species not advancements,
But decoration of a
space, the vibration of a universe
We call time,
marking a century in ghostly characters.
An
individual singing. As
though the wind which sings
Spoke of its own
nothingness, a clear lack of substance,
In a perfect absence
of meaning, which is its far purity,
Exemplified in long
dark scouring of the mountainside,
A churning
of empty light. Why do we
find it beautiful,
This strength, in
which there is nothing left of us at all?
Along the main
street where freedom goes, and forms
Are abolished, mannequins
in the windows no longer
Salute odd fashions
of acceptance; tear off their uniforms;
Being is less a
habit than a mystery, not in its working,
But
in its substance. In the
wind-swirled litter of the past,
Where light rings through
the outstretched human form.
To liberate them
from the mouths of these rhetoricians,
To purify them of
rite, to dissolve their cant, to redeem
The speech that
renders us human, grants us complexity.
It is our sacred
duty to make sacred mean what we wish,
The things we carry
breathless in our hands, bend down
To
touch and kiss. Our role
to speak the secular sacrament,
Which
frees the body and liberates the spirit, both in mind.
It is our moment, our
instant in history, to cry the human,
Beyond the last, perverse
institution; our work to abolish
The fatal given, for
the sake of the great gift from outside,
The
veils of light decking the universe, the nameless ones.
Is an
arc of light;
the glass man on the shelf
Throws brittle arms
skyward, his heart also
Glass, refracts prismatic rays of existence.
What penetrates him
is blue as snow, blood-red
At
sunset, yellow in patches, black as
Green leaves from
swaying trees equally there
Make emerald, malachite,
verdigris of his being.
Light trickles down,
flows through the waterfall,
The blobs of him
dripped into the open hands
Which are raised but
not I think in supplication,
More in an outward
yearning, clasping the stars
That,
in seven points of light, hang in the north,
And point nowhere.
They shine into his innards.
Translucent: what
goes through is only partially
Modified, there is
refraction, but impermanence.
His hands cannot
hold his body, but something
Contracts the
silicate towards itself in agonies,
Which are mere matter. The gleam illusory will
Deceive the eye into
half-perception of motion,
But no one moves. The
shelf’s below the window.
The dust in the air
vacillates beyond his visage,
Which
is a sightless delicacy of slippery surface,
A
nodule of fragile brightness, coruscating also.
He has no devoured
knowledge, nothing learnt.
He is a mirror into
which he cannot look, a lake
Inside which he
cannot linger except mindlessly.
He has to do with a
presence of borrowed form,
Which
is a denial of person, in a contradiction.
He has no voice,
only whispers of air in a room
Caressing
its exclusion. His solid
is frail, a mass
Of
transient permanence, in a refusal to dissipate.
In being he is
silvery or bluish absence, he is
Breakable
in-substance, incorporating others’
Reality,
himself irreal. His
hardness is false,
His
weakness evident. He has
indistinct feet
Which melt into what
upholds him. His limbs
Are branches of material
smoothness, polished
By
process. He is sand of
the sea and is ocean,
A
lens magnifying the march of hour on hour.
The weather flows
through his submerged deeps,
There are clouds,
something flies, something
Else is hurled.
Moons fall into the heart of him.
The physical Earth
is the globe of his shoulder.
Without compassion
he speaks of compassion.
Without desires,
embodies a desire or despair.
He rests in a
morning or an evening solitary,
As
an image. As such has
life, can be breathed.
There is a fantasy
perhaps includes him, a play.
In which he is hero,
to be shattered, or a god set
In a dark penumbra,
waiting for fire-shine, glow
Of
flame entering a core of frozen performance.
There is no warmth
in him, you’d say. Calm,
Though, an immense
calm belying size, peace
Tranquil
with a cusp of optic fury as its basis.
You could light a
silent, subtle candle there.
The glass man waits
for night or day to begin,
For some dove to
burble and bubble on the sky,
But is un-waiting:
like a crystallised thought,
Considering,
on our behalf, everything that is.
The world is veiled.
There are panes of silence,
Broken by the
passage of traffic, life is dear.
I can tell the time
of the universe, it is circular.
We meet each other
eternally at the atom’s core.
I kiss the hands of
freedom, whatever you embody.
The streets are
covered with soft sheets of rain.
The trees and grass
flow. It is their subtle nature.
The people come out
of the rock raise leaden arms.
There is a
transmission of sorts, but not of scripture.
A silent sacrament
would be perfectly acceptable;
We would simply hear
the respect for life going on.
The windows are
covered with tiny beads of rain.
The stars are
hidden. The grey cloud has a blue edge,
And the black tyres
hiss on the panes. Life is dear.
No possibles.
Whatever occurred; occurred.
The delays perhaps
were secret accelerations,
Hidden
maturings about to spring in the rose.
The wastes of time
were investments of days
To bring about the
hour of the unknown poem,
The lost loves were
inevitable failures of mind,
Incapable
of bridging the abyss.
Which is not
To say the flowering
of process is pre-destined.
Freedom is exactly
this unfolding of the ghost.
Or call it the
phantom man in the phantom life,
Which
is imposed. As opposed to
the human
Spirit which stands
in eternity, ever-unfolded.
Imagine the man in
the wind in the spring sun,
In the radiance of
childhood, youth, and age,
Becoming reality,
not merely confronting all
The dimensions of
space, and the angel of time
That figment of
fancy, swooping from the stars,
To receive this
beauty of love, our conception,
Or rather these gifts
of the winnowing of nature.
Here is the seamless
life, where nothing occurred
But that we were
part of, where no intention ran
Its course but
creature intention, where free will
Was free because it
was bounded by what we are
In becoming what we
may be. Forever, through us
And
not despite us. Imagine
the man in the wind,
Singing, or how could the streets sing, and despair
Redeem itself by
heart-work, the inner strangeness?
How could the warmth
of the outer sun in the bone
Proclaim our night’s
luminance of purple and gold?
As the others, there
is a brilliance of leaves shaken
In
an air cloud-filled with grey and blue. Forsythia
Tries to begin, tiny
daffodils are already swaying.
In this mood reality
is seen as the construct it is,
The space where we
live between the real, unreal,
Inhabited by minds,
and as a projection of mind,
And nothing more
real than what we think is so.
Now the reverse of
the world is reflected and new,
The garden seen
right to left in the mirror, a child
On a slide or a
swing or thrashing the spring grass
The
first believer.
Imagination swings its far bell.
In this mood the
wind makes a noise, the pigeon
Climbs the broken
tiles, always confident, afraid:
There is a flight,
not yet anticipated fully; a move
In
the arc of freedom which may lead to the place.
There is a shifting
on the roof, and in the silence
Of the glass, an
adjustment towards, a preparation
For the outward
slant, until in the poplar’s height
Down-seeing, all that
was in the mind lies spread.
A westerly wind
caresses the cloud and flows
Over
the sky, a silky gust of material process.
I’m tired of
creating, disappointed and disturbed
By the thing
created. The self we thought is never
The self we are,
never the self we imagined it to be.
The light’s changing, the cherry-tree is emerging
From its background
like a gift of the nature-tree
With
all its forks, drawn in an origin of the species.
The self-image
exhaled like a phantom shimmers
Above the houses;
the streets; the distant parkland:
Blake knew all about
it, he saw the inherent danger.
The light’s fading,
the cherry tree has blossomed.
Its petals will
scatter over the whole spring lawn,
A
fatal richness almost as lovely still as its promise.
Its slopes are measured
from real slopes, its rock
Is a rock we
apprehend with another sense, inward
And
secret. The air we
breathe we brought here.
The mountain in the
mind is the refuge we created.
We placed its stones
and pines, sighed its clouds.
Though the original
we climbed is this imaginary
Space where we now
climb, it’s the same irreality.
Nothing
complete. It’s vague, it
drifts like a space
In thought or
artificially precise as in a dream, false
But truer than what
we know, indeterminate like time,
And dangerous,
leading to precipice, abyss, ledge, fall.
Recognition would be
superfluous. No surprise if here
We exist, since this
is our being, laid out on the map.
Though we can’t name
the peak, it names us: the tarn
Far below defines
our shape in its cold blue distinction.
The poetry of the
place is ours. We climb what’s inside
Outwardly, and
inwardly what’s outside, clothed in turf
Or juniper, sliding
off as scree, polished and treacherous
After rain,
dissected by the streams of feeling, icy cold,
Or surprisingly warm
in the new sun. And there, in inner
Vision, see, the climber,
miniature and striving stumble
Upwards, that lesser
figure adrift in mist; seeing in turn,
Tinier mountains in the
mind, and far, diminished selves.
From
the sky, leaving that pure pang of blue.
These I went by,
each day, the winter long,
Admiring the dumb
endurance, all the form
Of wiry twigs
threaded against white cloud.
Nothing: we say.
A bit of some final plan.
But heartwood breaks
the heart, all’s a death,
A broken
love, at which we catch our breath.
Involved
with the present. Is this
our mythology?
No other’s possible
except the self-created: Blake’s
Mistake. One man’s visions are scarcely mythical.
But
a whole culture? Pound
tried. Yeats tried. Eliot
Tried saving
appearances. Now we stretch metaphors,
Or should we
document the individual life? That goes
On, young poets
still dream the personal spells truth.
Better to celebrate,
in deepest thought, and all try
Everywhere
to honour life. Write the
poems you can,
Testify to everyone
human, everything evermore human.
A shout in the
street, an eye in the shadow: mind music.
Prone to rushes of sentiment
when faced with truth,
Though
long-term memory poor.
Takes pleasure in
Group ritual, those
feelings of solidarity, the illusion
That more means clearer,
finer, better. Driven to ends
By
root desire. Especially
susceptible to greed or fear;
Redeemed
by creativity and love. Strangely
irrational
When it comes to
habitual methods, prone to received
Ideas. A tightrope walker dancing on an invisible
wire,
Over
the waterfall of infinite space, intrigued by spray.
A twittering bird of
metal hung in a miraculous machine.
Shy of the body
while flagrantly disposed to exhibit flesh.
Shy
of the mind, but happy to use its unintended products.
Exaggerating the
working of the unconscious, but ignoring
Its
strengths utterly.
Wasteful. Lazy in matters of principle,
Happy with inertia;
selfish, understandably, being transient;
Unselfish,
surprisingly, when that whole genetic heritage
Kicks
in. Incapable of
understanding that power is empty;
That institutions
kill though they save from chaos; that all
Are equal in feeling;
that the creatures require respect too;
That the only gods
and demons are the creations of fancy,
There to assuage the
deep hurt, the deep sorrow, the guilt,
But no more a
reflection of what is than an idle metaphor;
That time does not
exist; the universe wholly intentionless.
Believing in
phantoms, not understanding self’s a phantom;
Believing the real,
not understanding reality’s a construct,
Though there’s
plenty out there and mind lives in the irreal.
Not to be trusted,
except in certain circumstances with our
All. Not loveable, yet somehow to be loved. Not
beautiful
Yet
a creator of rare beauty.
A nest of falsehoods in search
Of
ultimate truth.
He had once felt
otherwise. Now he could get down
To control and
governance, to heavy censure of light,
And
exaltation of the prosaic.
Item: one broken staff,
Item: a buried book
with damp pages. He could rest
At
last in his pomposity, savouring the chill in the air.
Some things were
better left alone, he felt, cleft trees
For
instance. The dreams and
the phantoms abolished,
One can sit at the
little table in the library and ignore
One’s
own phantom shape in the mirror. The ghosts
And the dreams gone,
the cloud castles, the illusions
Of
mercy and redemption. Time
to consider the future,
The marriage of
order and law, the rule of a kingdom,
Though not the
obvious kingdom; there is more than
One island at stake;
Caliban and Sycorax have friends.
Prospero is only
vaguely aware of the singing sounds
In
the air, the elusive music, a stranger storm brewing.
It was flesh and
bone, not what hand meant.
His shadow was more
real, it strode on snow,
Danced on the river,
realised a swollen moon.
More like a thought,
half-present, half-absent,
A fictive
abstraction more solid than the door,
Which
immediately opened onto starlit space.
He moved his arm
after the hand, it was gone.
It turned into cloth
and an angle of inflection,
Like that of a
statue in the garden, a far gesture.
His memory of grass
was more real, it’s green
Echoed in the water,
a slant over the shallows,
More an existent cry
of matter to him than matter
Itself,
always transmuting itself into alien absence.
He stepped wholly
into the black place, and stood
Still. There was
nothing left of him by the water,
The lake shone empty
and the shore was empty.
Looking round was
nowhere he had come from,
Ahead was the bench,
a bird fashioned of metal,
The crystal sun, and trees of translucent emotion.
The inside of his
body was only feeling, in mind,
His insides were
thought, outsides a trick of vision,
The crazy room that
looks normal in the eye-hole,
All
strange dimensions. He
stood in the dark, ear
Tuned
to the water flowing, black churn of night.
The wind blew
through him. The light emerged
Unchanged from its
traverse through vein and skin,
There was nothing inside
him but the glistening air.
He accustomed
himself to being universe. Freed
From intent,
absorbed the movement of baryons,
Became
the singularity of the aeons. He shone
With
engendered brightness in the awful silence.
Slowly he moved the
gloves of his fingers, they
Were gas-veils; the
shrouds of his feet, they were
Invisible
clouds, weighting him darkly to the stars.
Asking the
questions, saying the words no one
Else dared say, and
having your answers feted
Unheard. That’s the way of the prophets, Allen.
You and Whitman,
dancing over the moonlit
Lawns in haste to
make all men one, and all
Women one, and the
species hear the sound
Of its wailing, feel
the glow of its own love.
You in hunger, in
strange
In the neon glow,
feeding the starving seeds
Of sunflowers and
watching Blake in eternity
Engrave the
shepherds of light with iron pen.
You who saw deeper,
thought better, laughed
Longer than the
clowns of tyranny, grease-paint
Faces, staring wild
from the tombs of language
Weapons
in their hands, their phantom hearts.
You who hung out in
all the religions, doubtful,
Caught in the net of
flesh, and hopeless humble,
Anxious in the
penumbra of the bitter almonds,
Of
an exiled race, and oddly happy in
Ignu, saying Kaddish
in a dark street in
Dreaming of the
vision of merciful time burning
Over
the silent City. I dream
of you Allen, brave
Conjurer
of music from our howls, and our sighs.
History will make
your poem prophetic, you said,
Spiritual music for
the ghosts lost in weary metal
On a highway you
blazed by with Neal, screaming,
Sucking in the long
breath of Poesy, Sanity, Charity.
I dream of you,
marvellous and immortal, dropped
From some star, with
a bag of words, felt, coloured,
Stuck now with the
words in your own books, bone
In the skeleton of
your century, light now to mine.
Uncorrupted, a Self
not part of the blind
Delusion. March sun in the leafless garden,
Waiting
for leaves. But at dawn I
watched
On the screen,
humans saving dolphins
On
a beach in
That much, a
finger’s breadth, between
Life
and death of the beautiful creature.
Spring again, and
the dark branches go
Green with buds,
unfurl flowers on bare
Stems, hang there
fragrant, black earth.
I,
the unfreezing of the ice-bound spirit.
Spring again, and I
search for your ghost
Among all the
ghosts, those days, the dead
Universes. So dull to be bound to only one,
By
the speed of light, by the dark of matter.
So
bright to be mind.
Watching the trees
Howl with joy if
they could in the day-glow.
Sensual
tremor. Mighty shake and
roll of old
Earth,
ever-new. Thank
everything! Spring!
Therefore
real, a confluence of things.
Each
moment, a freak of circumstance.
So as we sit here on
a winter evening,
In front of the
fire, two and the night,
This is the
transient miracle, this flame.
The private minds,
carelessly in tune;
Two on a bare branch
like two crows
Cawing
in shadow-less sunlight on the heath.
We circle a thought
perhaps, or diverge.
Creature
minds. You can’t be sure
ever
What flickers behind
the silent mask.
Or
masque. The universe in
its colourful
Costumes, the
gossamer Harlequins of light,
Gazing moonstruck at
our dance as Pierrot,
Matter, flickers in
the ash as if it had mind.
We confuse all these
forms at the conflux;
Rightly,
all energy in its moment of change.
Time’s not what we
think. The world’s irreal.
Place your hand in
mine, and hold to the abyss,
Over which this moment
walks with dove’s feet.
Stones placed on the
dark compost. White-striped
Aboriginal greys,
dappled pale greens, fissured pinks
And
blacks. The sun shines,
these are forms; glow
Of white smooth translucent
shell too; orange quartz;
That ellipse of
frosted calcite, perfect; pudding-stone,
Where
raw Nature flowers. Human
is formal, round,
World is informal,
and inwardly violent with being.
Look, as a tiny fly progresses. How did that get here?
One life is never
enough. The audience
Would
be the actress, the lover the loved.
There is a hankering
to live in the other,
To be the voyeur of
the interior being,
And be the only
inhabitant of her dream.
Self is the
resistance, the undeniable truth
That wherever we go
we only bring ourselves,
That the other would
essentially end as us,
And derided, as no
more then than the phantom,
The abandoned
crab-shell, the empty chrysalis
With the moth flown,
but the rose corrupted.
That longing to live
again in the other life,
To
be more than this. To own
and contain,
What all life cries
must never be owned,
And never be
contained.
At this strange
confluence of time and space,
Face in the mind,
face behind the eyes,
At this strange
confluence of time and space,
I see your face.
Between the evening
and the fading light:
It is as if we were
neither here nor there.
It’s not precisely a
region beyond the borders
Of mind, but surely imagination
ceases here;
No shore by the
Acheron, Lethe or the
Which are mythical
equivalents of this space,
Between the self and
the whole of what is not,
That knows nothing
of you, your aims, desires,
Implied beliefs,
strange fantasies, irreal dreams,
Feelings, rarely
returned (and then only mirrors,
Reflections
from the other, self-same and silent).
It is a space in a
room, in a green air of twilight,
Far beyond time, far
from some quartet’s tremor,
Or
cello’s rhythm, from art and meaning’s call.
It is a stillness
you compose. You exist as it,
And refrain from
exiting towards the richness,
Because
its simplicity long ago enchanted you.
More
than the lover? Nothing
more than her,
And yet this too
seduces, this is also her net
Thrown
across the eyes and lips, her doing.
Here you can go
without going, leave without
Leaving. Here you can stay, as on an island,
Or a slow beach
where the waves fall softly.
Here you can hover
on the edge of non-being,
Rest on the void.
Here distant branches wave
Tall
fronds. Here world sings
her alien song.
I would be the
delight of the internal smile,
And
not the chill of a universe beyond knowing.
I would be kind. I
would imagine doves flying,
The edges of cicada-leaves
reflecting the sun,
A network of streets
filled with our muteness.
I would be what you
wish and not what I wish.
I would be human
attention, and not the word,
The
gold fire of spring, not the lead snowman.
I would be the sky
over you and the ground
Cupping your feet,
the sand of intelligence,
And a corner of blue
wave bringing you time.
I would be beautiful
as you, and not strange.
I would be the well
of feeling we sank down
Into this universe, far
underneath our bodies,
Out of which, like a
black hole spewing photons,
Comes the x-ray light of love and form we made.
I would be
everything I am not, all your silences.
Below
the mind lurks the creative mind, unseen dark matter,
It’s
simply a private man in a private place, facing
Our
world intensifies in morality, in its sensitivity
Reading
the first poems one imagined alternative futures.
It
was a cone of flame, a shaft, a fall. Now it’s a glittering,
I
thought I’d escaped the moor, aware though
The
shriek of leaves in this wildness of trees,
Now
then begin again, each day seeing it new.
The
sun on stone, the first green leaves, are spring, yes,
Light
breathes through all the trees, and glitters on holly,
Mind’s
in the winter dale, fording a limestone stream,
He
felt all being a lightest rime of frost. Slender as a figure
Road-kill
sleeps by the road. I would like to think of the small
You’re
far off, on the other side of the world, and we’ve never met,
Over
the cliff ledge the rattle of antlers
One
last look at the stars before saying goodnight.
His
was a ghost whisper, reconciling us to ice and cold,
Whose
mind do you lie down with
It’s
an individual singing. Along the pale side-streets
It
is our task to repossess the words, to re-create them,
Each
glistening thread and bulbous dome
The
windows are covered with drops of rain.
Here
is the un-seamed life, no ifs and maybes.
In
this mood the shadows in the glass are as real
The
light is fading, the cherry-tree is blooming.
The
mountain in the mind’s the mountain we climb.
It’s
the heart that falls. Hopkins’ aspens drop
Too
many poems echo in the memory, become
Dubious
forward vision: best suited to brief crises;
Prospero
was happy to have got rid of Ariel, though
He
put his hand into Being then it vanished.
Allen
Ginsberg I dream of you, mad choirboy
Spring
again, and I search for a language
Every
fragile instant is impossible,
In a
big circular fat-bellied pot with a blueberry in;
Oh
yes, we all long to be part of other lives.
In
the deepest place world unwinds itself,
I
would be beautiful for you, and not strange.